How fierce is your love?

“Dong Kyeong” means deep longing. Yet, she never longs for anything nor anyone. She lives life as it finds her, not complaining just accepting.

“Sa Ram” means human. That’s the name Dong Kyeong gave him. He isn’t human, he is the Grim Reaper. He torments humans just before he reaps them, misunderstanding what the human life is. He only knows the power that was given to him and wields that power over the human life.

But things changed for Sa Ram the day he met Dong Kyeong. Dong Kyeong’s indifference towards the fact that she only has 100 days to live picked Sa Ram’s interest that he entered into a contract to take away her pain by holding her hand every night at 12MN.

Eventually, they fall in love. But Dong Kyeong’s fate hasn’t changed. The countdown to the day she’ll die passed by so swiftly both Dong Kyeong and Sa Ram didn’t realise how much they’ve changed since the day they met.

Dong Kyeong’s death is inevitable. In the midst of the heartbreak in their last goodbye, Dong Kyeong said to Sa Ram.

“Out of all the people I love, you turned out to be the one I loved most.”

Sa Ram replied, “I was born for you. I was born to take away your pain.”

As he held her hand taking Dong Kyeong’s pain, he slowly disappears right before her eyes. Sa Ram took Dong Kyeong’s place. She evaded death but wailed in agony realising the trade off as Sa Ram slowly vanished to thin air.

I cried buckets watching this scene. I couldn’t breathe, suffocation seemed to engulf me.

I felt that same pain and agony before. It’s like an invisible dagger pierced right through my heart when reality finally sunk in – he is leaving. Feelings must have their own memory when triggered there is no way stopping it. And just like that, I got transported right back to that day.

I sobbed with Dong Kyeong like I did that day all those years ago. He had to leave, it has been decided. There was no turning back. I lived in agony over the last three weeks that I could be with him before he had to leave for good.

I cried at home. I cried on the train. I cried while driving. I cried on my way to work. I cried while pretending to work. I couldn’t find any consolation.

It was then that I realised, I must have loved him so fiercely. Out of all the guys I loved before, I must have loved him the most.